domingo, marzo 18, 2007

Who The Fuck Do You Think You Are?

Congratulations. If you set out to piss me off, to annoy me, to make me feel like a piece of shit - congratulations. You have achieved your aim. I hope you are happy with the result because I know 100% that I am fucking not.

I have such a seething ball of anger and rage within my very soul that I am having to expend every piece of my soul-power to contain it, otherwise, I know what will happen. I dont like it when I become nasty because it surpasses nasty and becomes pure evil. The downside to being so intelligent is that I know exactly how to destroy. I spend a lot of time destroying myself but I consider this a better option than venting my fury and my vengeance on someone else or something else.

Hypocrites and bastards - indeed. Respect? Fuck off and earn it. I don't ask for respect, I don't crave affection, I don't desire attention - fucking hell, I ask for nothing except the chance to be heard. I don't give a flying fuck if you agree or not with what I say but, if you don't want to hear what I say, get the fuck off my planet and don't ask me for anything.

Respect.

Small word with big intention.

Whatever I do is never enough. Sad but true. So fucking what?!!! Once again I will be emotionally raped, left forlorn and telling myself that I probably deserved it, even asked for it. What a crock of shit. I AM a good person, I AM NOT some toy you can play with and dispose of when you choose. Don't like me? fine. Like I should give a fucking shit. Fuck off and take your misery somewhere else - misery loves company.

If this causes a tear to be shed, you have felt this way also. If not, this is a red dawn, a day where blood will be shed. I don't believe in religion but I would recommend praying because if I don't seperate myself from this anguish, hell and fury will be unleashed.

Silent screams - no more. Tears of blood will flow.

Have a nice fucking day......

15 comentarios:

dip-dop-crabtree dijo...

THEN THERE RESPECT!!
Anger relieves… it does not be necessary itself some to deprive, therefore to avoid undergoing the lightnings of the GOTH I some squeeze you "5 "in all friendship

Drama Queen dijo...

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?

Tell me. I'm concerned.

*pulls up a chair and prepares to stay a while*

Aunty Marianne dijo...

It was not a good St Patrick's Day for the Goth.

Whatever happened, hugs and Typhoo. And some homemade bread.

Perhaps AFTER you've gone for a nice long run.

Anónimo dijo...

hug rom dog blogger

phoenix dijo...

shit that was the outburst of the century. you ARE a good person,you ARE worth respect and we ARE all here to help even if we are virtual and not actually able to hug you in person. getting angry helps though as i've found out. People too often think they can treat others how they like but we are all living breathing feeling beings who get hurt and it's SHIT,but as you've told me yourself we deserve better and have to believe in our own self worth. Maybe when you've calmed a bit you could let us know what the hell's happened so we can try to help. x

kimmyk dijo...

Man...sorry someone pissed in your cornflakes. I hope you don't let it keep getting to ya. From what I know, you seem like a good person. That's enough to keep me coming back here.

Take it easy and don't let others getcha down....

bananas62 dijo...

MAN, SOUNDS BAD! Seriously, I love coming to your blog, I've learned some new expression to say the least! and those who dont'... don't come back... jeez!

So... I say "f" them all and have a better week

Calamity Jane dijo...

Goth - I will always respect you in the morning.

SpanishGoth dijo...

Big Gothic thanks to everyone - I will explain but first I needed to channel my rage, which I did. Then I ummed and aahhed about posting it but figured the peeps who visit need to know I am human, fallible and not always taking the piss out of god.

*smiles, sits down and lights a cigarette whilst attempting to formulate the correct words *

Hill dijo...

Thankgod you're not pissed at me. You're not, right?
For some bizarre reason, your rant left me wanting more.
Let it all hang out!

SpanishGoth dijo...

How on earth could I be pissed with you my love?

Anyway, I'm all better now thankyou. Rage has subsided and normality is restored (well, as normal as I get that is)

MKWM dijo...

So normality is now restored. Good. Very good indeed.

Daphne Wayne-Bough dijo...

Is this all because you didn't get a piece in the Shaggy Blog book? That was a magnificent rant, I must say, it takes talent to channel venom and rage in such a forceful stream of invective. Well done! And even more well done Gothesita if she has to put up with tantrums like that at home!

Tippler dijo...

You think that was bad. Wait til you see him next time United get beat.

Worse than me, he is...

SpanishGoth dijo...

Minky -> I did say normality, as far as it can be ;-)

Daffers -> Shaggy Blog Book? Hardly - takes a lot more than that to piss me off and Mariposa doesn't have to put up with rants because I put it in writing.....now

Tipp -> I am SO not worse than you when United get beaten - you big girls blouse