"Sitting on an angry chair, angry walls that still declare" - Alice in Chains. Unfortunately, a feeling I know all too well. I do my best to suppress my anger but, again it surfaces, triggered by some inane comment. Looking on the bright side, Rage Against the Machine are reforming, the "You brain dead, you want a mother fucking bullet in the head" gang are back in town.
However, in order to try and cheer myself up, gradually, I created a list of some of my favourite lyrics (feel free to suggest your own faves). it's a strangely therapeutic process, thinking about the list, like counting backwards from fucking ten to awww, look a baby one - usually works for me, but, that's 'musos' for you........ In theory, this train (of thought) should depart from anger (at whatever time it fucking wants - grrrr), stopping briefly at misery, angst, self-loathing, loneliness, sadness, bettersville, middle of nowhere, lunacy, pleasure, rock pleasure and other pleasure before terminating in Love.
*holds hand out* - "Tickets perlease !".
anger - "Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me" - Rage Against the Machine
misery - "I give, you take, this life that I forsake" - Metallica
angst - "this what you want, what you need, always feel me strapped to you.." - Moist
self-loathing - "I feel stupid and contagious, turn the lights off it's less dangerous" - Nirvana
loneliness - "All the teachers used to look right through me, look right through me" - Gary Jules (Tears For Fears)
sadness - "Would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven?" - Eric Clapton *tears flow - always reminds me of MG's*
bettersville - "Well they're never gonna get me, like a bullet through a flock of doves" - My Chemical Romance
middle of nowhere - "I'm on a road to nowhere, come on the ride" - Talking Heads
lunacy - "Fat bottoms, fat bottoms, talk about bum cheeks, my girls got 'em" - Spinal Tap
pleasure - "Touching you-eeee-ooooio, touching me-eee-eeiiooo" - The Darkness
rock pleasure - "She told me to come but I was already there" - AC/DC
other pleasure - "Then I'm gonna love you completely and then I'll fucking fuck you discretely" - Tenacious D
Love - "I'll save every day 'til eternity passes away just to spend them with you" - Jim Croce
OK - back to relative normality now. Not quite sure how you could measure it - they don't actually sell 'normality meters' in the shops. What I mean is I no longer want to stamp on someone's head until it looks like a beef patty. Which is good, right??
So now, bloggers, I need your help. I have finally persuaded the Wicked Witch of the East (WWotE) to allow MG's (mini-goths) to go to Euro Disney. This is not the Big Issue - not after your money (already got that boring shite covered) - I need you to pray for no-rain. Second week of April - I need a heatwave in Marne-la-Vallee. Remember that there were seven wonders of the world, well there are two in Goth world and I don't want them to have a crap time.
Contrary to the bullshit of the 'bitches of eastwick' (otherwise known as the pontificating, lying witches purporting to be friends to ex-G but in reality, fuckwits job-sharing one brain between them all) I do want a holiday for my kids. The MG's can go - and I'm even paying for WWotE also - and, in the best hotel I might add. But, as a Goth I am not allowed to trifle in the tinkerings of shite like the weather etc - so, help......pls.
ps just to conclude with my favourite lyrics (from my hero, Andrew Eldritch) - "I was quite impressed until I hit the floor, but isn't that what friends are for" - "In a bar that's always closing, in a world where people shout, I don't want to talk it over, I don't want to work it out" .
pps taking his head out of his own arse long enough to think about other peeps - big hugs to Special K - besos chica xxx