No matter what position I try in bed at the moment, it's just not working - I can't do it. This is very unusual for me and not something I like at all.
This from a person, who not so long ago, could do it anywhere - and did. In bed, on the sofa, in the bath, on the beach, on a train - bloody hell, you name it and I probably did it there. I wasn't embarrased. Why should I be? My body, I'll do what I bloody well like with it.
But, it's coming to the crunch (and I don't like crunchy things) I may have to go to the doctor and get some of those little pills. This is going to be such a twatty day. Me, the supposed Goth of Rock having to go and beg for pills from a doctor because I can't do it. It's just not bloody rock n roll.
Then he'll probably tell me to eat healthily. Yeah right, that's going to happen. This for a person that if he receives a plate with some side salad on it, says to the waiter "Well you can take that green shit off there to start with".
I don't think I have a choice though, I want to do it, I NEED to do it.
Buggery bollocks with tassles on
No choice though, I'll have to go to the doctor with my head bowed and mutter that I'm not capable of it anymore.
The really sad thing is I know the reason. It's not some phsiological problem, it's purely mental.....
I'm just not used to sleeping alone. She's not here, and I can't do it - get to sleep that is.