I never worried about bullies - pea-brained numbskulls. I don't mean that I didn't do anything about them, I just out-thought them. Not hard to do really.
I don't worry about going to strange cities or meeting weird people - I can deal with all that shit.
Never really cared for authority in any shape or form - poke me with your self aggrandising bullshit and I'll kick you in the bollocks.
There are things that I do worry about. I worry about friends and family (particularly the mini-Goths) - except when I'm there as I can wrap them in my Gothic cloak and protect them.
The one thing I can't protect against is myself and my self-destructive nature. It's not because I hate myself as I don't although I can cry myself to sleep like anyone. I might appear sure, confident and spiky but that's just a mask.
I would never take out my anger on someone else, it's happened a couple of times and I have never really forgiven myself. Thus I take it out on myself - I just carry on cutting my life into pieces looking for the reason to believe.
Therefore, if it seems like I am spiralling, I probably am.
I know someone so intelligent should have the answers but I don't. It's not because I haven't looked for them - I just can't find them .
Somewhere, in the darkness, hides a small child I think. But he can't come out to play as the Goth is here now and I can't save me from myself.
Like I said - I'm my own worst enemy.