To steal from Steinbeck - the best intentions of mice and men! I am so angry I could..........stamp on a hamster. Not smoking lasted 4 hours and 31 minutes (mainly while I was asleep). Didn't pick the best time to give up. The love-in terminates today as she has a "ticket to ride". My ex has gone decidedly "stage-left" and it's still chuffing raining.
As Gaz says in The Full Monty - "It's all to f*cking cock is this". Trying to be positive though - grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Did manage to find 50 euros I had stashed in a drawer - don't remember why but hooray anyway. 10 bottles of Wodka if I shop at Murky Donna (the cheap supermarket in Spain).
So, why the Jigsaw Man? - because I feel like a jigsaw with a piece missing - 999 pieces in a 1000 piece tale. Every time I think I have the chuffer figured, I can't complete the puzzle. Suppose I could just cheat and give it away to charity!! And I still have this overwhelming feeling of doom as I know I have to move back to Belgium from Spain - chuffing great......mayonnaise with everything again! Looking on the not so bright side, at least it will be easy to remain Gothic and I still have my umbrella collection ;-)
Today is a trip to the Aeropuerto - slowly on the way there, attempt to break the land speed record on the way back. Thankfully, I don't have to go to Ali-twatty airport - god I hate that place. Thank Goth I have a copy of The Shining on DVD to watch later - "all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy".
Should be happy - living mainly in Spain and not on the plain but Goth rules apply - no smiling, being happy or wearing colours other than black. I went to do an intensive Spanish course at the University - I can read, translate and speak Spanish but wanted to improve it. Had to drop out however - the dinky little French "chick" sat next to me was too much of a temptation and I don't want my libido running my life.........think "shoe repair shop"!!
So, I'm off to look for the missing piece of the puzzle. It's bound to be somewhere obvious - Einstein said so.....not personally but laws of physics etc. Could read "Mastering UNIX" but it's so chuffing boring - oh bollox, get the Richard Pryor DVD out!!